Questions About Myself

1. Is this what I want to be doing?

No.  When I worked in mortgage foreclosures I had no issues with taking someone’s home; it was a necessary evil.  Since I managed in the loss mitigation department I had the ability to get a clear picture of someone through their income and expenses.  I learned that numerous people felt they needed items to appear wealthy but in were over extended in all most every aspect of their life.  I didn’t have any sympathy for people that lived above their means for reasons of perceived status.  The Industry I’m in now is not like that at all.  I really have a bad feeling about everything they do.  I feel as if they are consistently taking advantage of people that are doing everything they can to make their bills.  I need out and I’ve already started to look.  Hopefully I’ll know a little more next week but my exit strategy is already in stage 2 of planning.

2. What do I want to change about me?

There are quite a few things that I would like to change but I’ll keep this more on an overview level than a detailed explanation.

1.      Physical- I want to get into better shape.  I don’t see myself getting back into military shape since I’m not humping a 90lbs. pack 13 miles, working out to muscle fatigue every morning or running ops for 12 hours.  At the same time I know that a few years ago I weighed less, felt better, and I want to get back to that.  I planned a lot of races this year to help motivate me to get into shape, but with the recent ear of my calf those have been put on hold.  Momentarily I might add.

2.      Mental- I’ve always felt the best when I’m learning new things.  I feel right at home in a library and love to get entrenched into new subjects.  I made a goal for myself of reading for at least an hour 3 times a week.  I also want to learn a couple languages this year.  Spanish and French are goals this year but my goal is to know at least 5 languages at some point in my life.  Studying different cultures, different periods in time, and different industries have always appealed to me and I need to get back on track for that.

3. How much junk do I need?

I just moved and I got rid of a lot of things.  Shoes, shirts, pants, etc all went to Good Will.  Now that I’m in my new place the closet is a lot smaller than at my old place.  I’ve got too much junk.  I have at least 100 T-shirts and I might wear 10 in rotation.  I own maybe 17 pairs of shoes and wear 4-5 regularly (not counting my dress shoes) so I should donate some of those.  I think a lot of this stuff would better benefit someone that needs these items as opposed to me who only uses them a few times a year.  It’s hard though.  I look at my baby blue and yellow eS shoes that I wear a handful of times or the 8 pairs of DC tennis shoes that I casually wear and wish I could wear them more often.  The truth is that with the business casual wardrobe taking over 5-6 days a week I just don’t have the time.  I should give these items away.

4. What memories am I/ did I miss out on?

As we get older some of the things that were very high on our priority list seems to fall to the wayside.  Traveling has been the biggest one for me these past few years.  I’ve become a lot more stable in the last year or so.  I used to regularly take impromptu trips to Austin, Houston, NYC, Boston, California, and anywhere else that I wanted to take a trip too.  With more responsibility the commitments become greater and things that played a greater importance in your life long goals seem to change.  I’ve noticed that as I work longer and was promoted these spur of the moment trips became less and less.  Austin turned into a twice a year deal and Houston changed to about the same.  I’ve missed out on some memories that I know would have been great along with growing apart from some of those friends.  I guess time will tell if those decisions not to go where worth it or it is was just another missed opportunity.